I have worked with patients suffering from various forms of dementia which led me to the opinion that they were in fact living dead or what popular culture likes to cal Zombies, however the only brain that would be devoured would be their own and the memories that would remain would be the oldest, their childhood. I told my self that I would rather die then become a shell of my former self.

And now over to anxiety and depression, which paralyses you, creates an uncontrollable fear that puts you in to a lethargic state where nothing maters, and pushes you into a downward spiral that is difficult to brake out of. Some say that it is an illness of the week minded, I think not, one would not say a sports athlete is week because he often injures him self? One would say that it is because he puts him self in harms way.

I went for my dreams with al the furry I had in me, but maybe I went too close to the sun and it burned away my spirit, leaving behind a shell cocooned in anxiety and depression, but with enough awareness to realise its predicament, which makes me wonder, what is worse dementia or depression?

The answer is easy if one reminds one self that dementia is a one way ticket to oblivion whereas depression is not a death ticket, but merely a state of darkness from which one can rise once more.

And now over to something completely different, computer games, or maybe not, I can not think of any other visual entertainment that makes you any more lethargic. No mater what I play, be it solitaire, Tiny Tower or Bioshock the result is the same, it pacifies you to the extent where I wonder if it is a modern form of lobotomization.

And finally a big statement from thin air, said in a Holy Artist kinda way, I say that there is something wrong with a society that places everything one wants on a silver plater. We should cast away the illusion that happiness can be bought, and see the truth, that happiness needs to come from real struggle and perseverance, not game simulations, not material fulfilment and not passive consumption of media. Stop lobotomising your selves, brake out of the BOX. However it is wise to remember that the thing itself is not at fault, it is how you chose to use it, but are we making that choice or is there a guiding hand?